Jungkook's insomnia and nightmares

Jungkook’s insomnia and nightmares form a recurring condition rather than an isolated bad night: he later says he has struggled to sleep since childhood and that the problem has recently grown worse. The story links his exhausted nights to a life shaped by domestic violence and accumulating anger, while showing the immediate cost in sleeplessness, frightening dreams, and panic. Drawing, smoking, and other distractions can occupy the hours, but do not reliably bring sleep; in the most intense episodes, Shelby’s steady presence helps him calm down without making his distress disappear.

Duration and pattern

Jungkook describes the problem as lifelong. During a conversation with Shelby, he says that he has been unable to sleep properly since he was a child and feels it has been getting worse. Shelby answers that she, too, has not really slept for two years and had night terrors during the first year. Their exchange gives his insomnia a duration and a history, while establishing that their experiences overlap without suggesting they have the same cause.

The narration repeatedly measures the condition in lost hours. On one morning, sleep has left Jungkook after only three hours. On another, after spending the night with Kayla, he has not slept at all. The following morning after a separate night of distress, he wakes abruptly, sweating, in a room that is not his own. These episodes make insomnia a recurrent feature of his daily life, not simply a prelude to a single nightmare.

Anger, trauma, and the waking hours

Jungkook’s inability to sleep appears alongside an increasingly consuming rage. After a fight with Andrew Wilson, he smokes alone at his student-room window and dwells on the fact that the bout did not feel like an honest victory: Andrew had forfeited, and Jungkook had wanted to continue until his opponent was unconscious. He regards the violent adrenaline as useful in the ring, even as he recognizes that anger is taking over his other emotions. Namjoon and Chen have noticed the change. The scene does not state that anger alone causes his insomnia, but it places the two in the same deteriorating pattern: his waking hours are governed by violent impulses, and rest offers no reliable escape.

In another sleepless episode, Jungkook’s anger turns toward Josh. His inner turmoil urges him to find Josh and settle the matter by force. To push the idea aside, Jungkook draws what he most desires, including sexual and lustful images, but the effort still does not restore sleep. After sex with Kayla, a similar impulse draws him toward the Ares Garden and the prospect of hitting someone relentlessly. This time he does not go, though he cannot explain why. He sketches by moonlight and later scrolls through Instagram, passing the hours without sleeping. Across these nights, drawing is a recurring diversion from violent thoughts, not a demonstrated cure for either his insomnia or his anger.

The narrative places this pattern against a childhood marked by conflict at home. In a remembered scene in Seoul, eight-year-old Jungkook struggles free of Ye-jun, who is holding him back from going downstairs while their parents argue in the kitchen. Jungkook says he is tired of their fighting. Sunmi’s account supplies another part of that history: she recalls that Jungkook once arrived with a badly injured face after his father had hit him, but claimed he had fought at school and Namjoon had intervened. At sixteen, he ran away from home and took refuge with Sunmi; his father did not try to find him. The book does not provide a complete account of the nightmares’ contents, but these scenes establish a history of violence and fear that gives his childhood onset emotional context.

Nightmares and acute distress

The effects of sleep deprivation surface in a particularly raw scene on the morning of October 26. Jungkook wakes in a sweat and initially has to orient himself to the unfamiliar room. Seeing Shelby asleep at the foot of the bed and a damp towel beside her, he understands that she has stayed to look after him. He remembers the previous evening and realizes that, while drunk, he disclosed a brief part of his life. Once he is alone in his own shower, the bad dream returns to mind. He begins to cry, then slides down the shower wall and breaks into sobs, voicing the anger and sadness that have been wearing him down. His wounds from a fight are also visible in the mirror afterward. The scene gathers physical injury, remembered disclosure, and a nightmare’s aftermath without specifying what he dreamed.

A separate nighttime episode makes the bodily signs more immediate. Shelby hears Jungkook cry out in his sleep and finds him feverishly hot, restless, and breathing rapidly. His condition resembles a panic attack. When he wakes, frightened and crying, Shelby wipes his face and touches the scar on his left cheek; Jungkook pulls her into his arms and holds tightly to her shirt. As she gently rubs his back and speaks reassuringly, his breathing gradually steadies. The scene shows an episode easing through another person’s calm attention, not through a sudden end to the underlying sleep problem.

Coping, care, and significance

Jungkook’s ways of getting through the night are practical and limited. He smokes after a fight, sketches when violent thoughts threaten to take over, and turns to Instagram when drawing has not helped him sleep. In another episode, he uses drawing to occupy a sleepless morning after only three hours of rest. These acts give the hours a shape, but the narrative repeatedly returns to the same result: sleep remains out of reach.

Shelby’s support is shown through specific acts of care. When Jungkook is panicking in his sleep, she brings a damp towel, removes the covers, wipes his tears, and stays close as he clings to her. After he wakes from a bad dream in her room, her presence at the foot of the bed and the towel beside him reveal that she had kept watch. Elsewhere, he remains beside Shelby when she is crying in a changing room, and he places a hand on her knees as she seeks comfort. Their care is reciprocal, but the evidence does not suggest that either becomes the other’s sole remedy.

The condition’s narrative force lies in the gap between Jungkook’s outward violence and his vulnerability when sleep fails. He may treat rage as an asset in the ring, yet night after night it follows him into hours when he cannot fight, and sometimes into dreams that leave him weeping or panicked. Drawing and companionship offer brief forms of refuge; neither erases the past or establishes a lasting recovery. The account leaves his insomnia and nightmares as an ongoing expression of distress whose roots reach back to childhood and whose consequences continue into his present relationships and choices.