Homelessness
I'm Still Here- What didn't kill me made me stronger and sharperHomelessness is a recurring condition in Jensen Brick McCall’s life, bound up with childhood rejection, unstable care, and drug use. The narrative presents it not as a single episode but as a period of exposure and dependence: Jensen sleeps on library steps, is forced out of a temporary home, and later depends on Gloria Simpson Picou for food and shelter. His eventual place at the head of a family table provides a stark counterpoint to that earlier precarity.
Background and Abandonment
Jensen’s lack of security begins before he can speak for himself. He recounts surviving an attempted abortion late in pregnancy and being left in medical care after his birth, where a nurse, Grace McCall, intervened to save him. At first he had no name and was recorded as John Doe; Grace gave him the name Jensen. He understands his mother’s rejection as the origin of a life in which mere existence could feel like an uncertain privilege. The account does not make homelessness a direct consequence of this beginning, but places it within a longer history of being unwanted and without dependable protection.
That history continues through foster care. Jensen describes sleeping on the steps of a library and being an unwelcome guest in other people’s homes, where he was reduced to the label of foster kid. He also recalls surviving sexual violence and severe living conditions, experiences he presents as part of a past marked by losses and dangers rather than stable belonging. His homelessness is therefore one element in a broader pattern of displacement.
Temporary Shelter and Peer Care
One episode shows how quickly a provisional place to stay could disappear. While living at the Byrd household, Jensen was told to leave after refusing to clean up after the family’s sick dog. Wet and without shelter, he was invited in by Five dollars, Maine, and Drew, who gave him dry clothes and food. He remembers them as the first people to treat him like a human being.
Their welcome matters because it is both practical and emotional: clothing and a meal offer immediate relief, while shared games and basketball give Jensen a brief sense of community among young people who, like him, had difficult relationships with their mothers. That refuge was not lasting. Jensen later recalls that the friends were gone after entering conflict with Brick Town, despite his warning to stay away. The loss renews his sense that the few people who offered him belonging could also be taken from him.
Homelessness, Drug Use, and Care
In a later account, Jensen describes being homeless and struggling with drugs when Gloria Simpson Picou fed him every day and took him in. Her help gives material form to a relationship that had begun in rejection: she provides food and a place to stay, while he promises to put his life right and go to nursing school. He says he cares for her for twelve hours a day and plans to have Tootsie take the next shift. The exchange reverses the direction of care. Jensen, once dependent on someone else’s shelter, becomes a caregiver himself.
The novel places this support alongside, rather than in place of, Jensen’s need for help. Inya offers to help him, and Jensen’s later account of his homelessness makes clear that receiving care does not erase the difficulty of recovery. He describes using drugs to escape the pain of believing that his mother did not love him and of remembering his mistakes, while also acknowledging that he does not know how to stop. Homelessness and addiction coexist in this period; the evidence presents them as overlapping hardships without reducing one to a simple cause of the other.
From Displacement to Family
Jensen’s later family life sharply contrasts with his earlier status as a guest without a secure home. On Christmas Day, Janae Morrison gives birth to their daughter, Grace Pearl McCall. Jensen describes Janae as his wife and best friend and takes his place at the head of a table surrounded by family. The image of a shared table answers the earlier scenes of sleeping outside and relying on others for a meal, though the narrative does not suggest that the past simply disappears.
The transformation also changes how Jensen understands his mother. He once named her as the person who had tried to end his life; by the family gathering, he calls her his mother and has donated a kidney so that she can remain present for his younger siblings. Homelessness thus belongs to a larger movement from abandonment toward chosen and restored family ties. The decisive contrast is not only between having shelter and lacking it, but between being treated as disposable and becoming someone who offers care, makes commitments, and claims a place among others.
