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Patrick moves in with Tom and Marion after his stroke

My Policeman

Patrick moves into Marion Burgess and Tom Burgess’s home after his stroke, an event that turns their bungalow into both a place of care and a setting for unresolved relationships. His arrival at The Pines in Peacehaven brings him within reach of daily support, but his damaged speech and physical dependence make the household’s silences newly consequential. The move offers no assurance of recovery; its immediate meaning lies in the difficult, practical work of living together.

The Move to The Pines

Tom had wanted to retire somewhere quieter, smaller, and supposedly safer. The couple’s two-bedroom bungalow had a long lawn, a whirligig washing line, a shed, a garage, a greenhouse, and an oblique glimpse of the sea from a side bedroom. Marion had not wanted to leave their terraced house on Islingword Street, where the neighbours’ windows reflected back at them, but she arranged the bungalow’s bedroom with Patrick in mind. Although she and Tom had never had a sea view of their own, she gave Patrick the room from which he could see the water, recalling the view he had enjoyed from his flat on Chichester Terrace.

Patrick came from hospital in Tom’s car, and Tom lifted him into his chair and wheeled him along the front path. Marion remembers the new home as a sequence of surfaces and sounds: pebble-dash, a smooth double-glazed door, a neat conifer hedge, pinkish-grey concrete slabs, and the bleach she had used to clean the hallway. The bungalow’s name, The Pines, seemed to her especially ill-suited to Patrick. The ordinary neatness of the place, rather than welcoming him, appeared capable of frightening him.

Inside, Patrick nodded at the wedding photograph, which showed Tom in a suit paid for by Patrick and Marion in her veil. The three sat in the living room as the central heating ticked and Walter, the couple’s collie-cross, panted at Tom’s feet. Tom then said Marion would see Patrick settled and left to attend to something. Patrick watched him go, staring at the net curtains; after the front door closed, his limp hands shook on his knees. The arrival thus brought Patrick into Tom’s home without giving him the closeness to Tom that he seemed to want.

Care and Communication

By the time Marion writes about the move, Patrick has been at The Pines for a week. His speech is almost destroyed, and communication takes place through flashcards: he points to pictures for such basic needs as a drink, the lavatory, or a sandwich. Marion often knows what he wants before he reaches the right picture, but allows him to point so that he can retain some independence. The cards make the limits of his speech visible while preserving a small, deliberate space for choice.

Pamela, who visits morning and evening for an hour, advises Marion to get Patrick out of bed and include him at the family table. Yet eating together exposes how much help he needs: his hand is unsteady as he raises a spoon, and milky food spills into his lap and onto Tom’s shoes. Marion wants to steady his wrist, but Patrick’s bright, unreadable look stops her. She first takes it for anger and later wonders whether it was a plea. The scene leaves her uncertainty intact rather than converting his expression into an easy explanation.

Marion also takes responsibility for bathing Patrick on weekends, when Pamela does not visit. The care is exact and bodily: she uses a soft flannel and an amber soap bar, helps him out of his blue-striped pyjamas, and washes him with a bowl beside the bed. She resolves not to avert her eyes from the necessary intimacy of the task. Her decision marks a change in how she faces Patrick’s vulnerability, even as the work makes their new dependence on one another unavoidable.

Uncertain Recovery and the First Words

Pamela tells Marion that hearing is the last sense to go in a stroke patient and that Patrick can hear well despite being unable to speak. Marion imagines the frustration of understanding other people while being unable to form words in response. Doctors and nurses discuss physiotherapy, speech therapy, and counselling, but cannot predict whether Patrick will stand, speak again, suffer another stroke, or recover fully. The move therefore takes place under a prognosis of uncertainty, not as a settled transition from hospital to recovery.

Several weeks pass before Patrick speaks a word Marion can understand. While she is washing him, he asks where Tom is. He repeats the question as she dresses him, each time more quietly and slowly; Marion turns away to fetch a clean pyjama jacket and cannot answer. She tells him that Tom will be proud that he is speaking again, then makes tea. They drink in silence, Patrick exhausted over his straw. His first clear words show that speech may be returning, but their content also makes Tom’s absence the immediate concern. For Marion, the move has become more than an arrangement of rooms and care: it is a daily encounter with Patrick’s dependence, his continued attachment to Tom, and the limits of what she can give him.