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Tom and Marion’s first kiss

My Policeman

Tom and Marion’s first kiss is the turning point in a Saturday evening when Marion tries to claim time alone with Tom and discovers how sharply their expectations differ. The kiss follows a public argument, but it does not simply erase the tension: Marion remembers it as an abrupt, relieving intimacy, then later questions whether Tom also meant to end her outburst. The scene is narrated retrospectively by Marion Taylor, addressing Patrick Hazlewood, whose absence shapes both her hopes for the evening and her interpretation of what follows.

The Evening Marion Wants

Near the pavilion, Marion realizes that Tom’s plans have left them alone together, without Patrick. She is pleased by the prospect, and steers Tom into the King and Queen for a drink. Her purpose is not merely to stop for refreshments: she wants to do what she understands as normal young couples’ Saturday-night activity, staying beside Tom in the crowded pub and enjoying his physical nearness. The crowd presses them together as music plays, making the closeness she wants possible even before either of them speaks openly about it.

Tom, however, appears to have something else in mind. When he suggests that they go somewhere else, Marion resists leaving before she has finished her drink and asks after Sylvie, deliberately redirecting the conversation away from Patrick. She does not want to know why Patrick is in London or what he is doing there. Her avoidance reveals that his absence is not emotionally neutral: she welcomes the chance to be alone with Tom, but does not want to examine the circumstances that have made that chance available.

Tom finishes his drink, says they cannot talk in the pub, and walks out without looking back or calling for Marion. His manner turns an invitation to leave into an apparent decision made without her. Marion follows only after gulping down the rest of her gin and tonic. The difference between their expectations—her wish to remain together in a familiar public setting and his wish to take the evening elsewhere—sets up the confrontation rather than the easy date she had imagined.

The Confrontation and Kiss

Once outside, Marion recognizes the force of her anger in her own body: her breath quickens, her arm stiffens, and she draws her hand back. She understands that she may slap Tom if she does not speak, so she plants her feet and shouts at him. She asks why they cannot have a drink like a normal couple and insists that she wants only to be alone with him. The demand names the evening’s central issue plainly: Marion is asking not just for Tom’s company but for an ordinary, acknowledged kind of couplehood.

Tom looks surprised. Marion notices people in the street staring and imagines them judging her as a redhead, but by then embarrassment matters less to her than making herself heard. After a long pause, her arms remain rigid, though her hand relaxes. She knows she ought to apologize, yet fears that speaking will bring on a sob. The pause holds the scene between anger and vulnerability; neither a reconciliation nor a further quarrel has been spoken into being.

Tom then steps forward, takes Marion’s head in his hands, and kisses her on the lips. The gesture changes the evening’s emotional direction without answering her complaint in words. In retrospect, Marion considers whether he kissed her to silence her or to prevent further public embarrassment. She connects that possibility to his position as a police constable still on probation, but makes clear that this interpretation came later, not in the moment itself. At the time, the suddenness and urgency of the kiss leave her thinking about sensation rather than motive. She experiences it as relief and as a release from self-consciousness: for once, she allows herself simply to feel.

The Walk Afterwards

After the kiss, Tom and Marion say little. They walk together along the seafront with their arms around each other’s waists, facing the wind from the sea. Marion sees the waves rising, breaking into white tops, and dispersing. Boys on motorbikes race along Marine Drive; each passing bike gives her an excuse to hold Tom more tightly. These details carry the intimacy forward through gestures rather than conversation. Tom does not kiss her again, but Marion sometimes rests her head on his shoulder.

The route takes them away from the bright noise of the pier and towards Kemp Town, past overturned fishing boats on the shore. Marion does not know where they are going and does not consider their direction; walking beside Tom is enough. The contrast with the pub matters: there, the crowd physically pressed them together while Marion tried to preserve the evening she wanted; outside, their closeness continues more quietly, through linked arms, a shoulder offered, and the shared movement along the coast.

Retrospective Meaning

Marion’s narration keeps the kiss open to more than one reading. Its effect on her is immediate and affirmative, but her later question about Tom’s intention prevents the memory from becoming a simple account of romantic resolution. The kiss interrupts a public argument and gives her a form of closeness she had asked for, yet it leaves the underlying difference in their expectations unspoken. Her recollection distinguishes what she felt then from what she suspects now, making hindsight part of the event’s meaning rather than a final verdict on Tom.

Patrick remains present in the scene despite being absent from the walk. Marion feels generous towards him after the kiss and imagines that he may have gone away deliberately to give her and Tom time alone; she even imagines him encouraging Tom to take her somewhere and kiss her. This hopeful interpretation brings the three-sided context back into the moment of apparent couplehood. Their walk ends as they reach Chichester Terrace, where Tom stops and feels in his pocket. The account thus carries the couple from Marion’s public demand for ordinary intimacy into a quieter, physically shared evening, while preserving the uncertainty and Patrick-shaped absence that accompany it.