Yohan and Vixon's Relationship of Longing, Deception, and Enmity

Yohan and Vixon's relationship is a one-sided longing turned into an unequal, deceptive bond and, finally, open enmity. Yohan once carried an unconfessed crush on Vixon; when they reconnect, he gives Vixon work, but Vixon uses that access to manipulate Yohan's feelings and perceptions. Their collapse exposes the difference between Yohan's earnest attachment and Vixon's stated pursuit of money, while Yohan's later life with Kazumi shows that his story moves beyond this failed attachment without erasing his gay identity.

An Old Crush and a New Opportunity

Before Vixon re-enters his life, Yohan remembers him as a handsome former crush whose feelings he had never confessed. In conversation with Kazumi, Yohan wonders where Vixon is and admits that the old attraction remains unresolved. The recollection establishes an imbalance from the outset: Yohan has invested emotion in the idea of Vixon, while the evidence does not show that Vixon reciprocated that longing.

The opportunity for reunion arrives when Vixon's name appears in connection with a job. Kazumi recognizes it with delighted surprise, and Yohan hires Vixon after he explains that he has been fired, has no money, and has gone hungry for several days. Yohan's decision is compassionate and immediate. It also gives Vixon access to someone who already has a personal reason to trust him. What begins as practical help therefore carries two meanings: employment for a man in financial distress, and a chance for Yohan to draw close to the person he once admired.

Yohan's position as Vixon's employer makes that closeness unequal in another way. He can offer the job and later withdraw money, while Vixon's need gives the employment material stakes. Yet Yohan's authority does not make him discerning about Vixon's claims. His emotional investment instead becomes a vulnerability that Vixon can exploit.

Vixon's Lies and Yohan's Misreading

Vixon turns Yohan's attention away from the possibility that he himself is acting deceitfully by portraying Kazumi as a threat. He tells Yohan that Kazumi and a man with her are speaking against them, citing her eye-roll and complaint that they were noisy. Yohan accepts the story, not because he has established what Kazumi meant, but because Vixon's account fits what he thinks he saw. The misunderstanding makes Vixon's manipulation effective: an ambiguous gesture is treated as confirmation, and Yohan's trust in Vixon becomes a reason to distrust his longtime friend.

Vixon escalates the accusation by claiming that Kazumi tried to seduce him after leaving the office following his job interview. Yohan is persuaded that Kazumi has betrayed their friendship and is pursuing Vixon. The claim is not presented as a verified encounter; it is part of Vixon's effort to shape Yohan's view of both Kazumi and himself. Yohan's old crush gives the allegation an additional charge, turning his wish to be close to Vixon into a readiness to believe that others are competing for him.

The novel later exposes the deception through a shift into Vixon's point of view. Vixon privately acknowledges that he has fooled Yohan: he had sex with Zhara, but the painting he presented as evidence of an activity with her was merely purchased, not made by him. He also sent Yohan a conversation involving Kazumi, allowing Yohan to believe that she had been talking about him when she had actually been discussing a friend. These disclosures recast the earlier scenes. Yohan's suspicions did not arise from reliable evidence; Vixon deliberately arranged partial information so that Yohan would mistake it for proof.

That gap between what Yohan believes and what Vixon knows gives their relationship its sharpest dramatic irony. Yohan experiences the bond as an increasingly intimate alliance under attack from Kazumi, while Vixon describes himself to the reader as successfully making excuses and fooling Yohan. The relationship is thus sustained not by shared candor but by Vixon's control over what Yohan is allowed to understand.

Exposure, Disappointment, and Rupture

The deception becomes harder to maintain when Zhara's pregnancy enters the confrontation. Yohan directly asks whether Vixon got her pregnant. Vixon's evasiveness is interrupted when Kazumi says she heard what was being discussed. As the exchange intensifies, Zhara accuses Vixon of lying and pursuing her money. Vixon responds by punching her in the face hard enough to make her nose bleed. Yohan looks at him with disappointment, a reaction that marks a change in the emotional balance: the man Yohan had wanted to believe is now seen acting violently in front of him.

The confrontation strips away the possibility that Vixon's bond with Yohan rests on affection. When Yohan demands to know whether Vixon has used him for money, Vixon admits that he never truly liked him and wanted his money. The admission converts Yohan's earlier generosity into a source of injury. Yohan lets go of Vixon's hair, and Vixon takes the opportunity to punch him. Yohan punches Vixon in the lip in return and leaves, refusing him further money. Their conflict is no longer a contest of rumors or concealed motives: it has become physical, and Yohan's withdrawal of financial support makes the break concrete.

The ending of this relationship is a reversal of the hiring scene. Yohan first offered Vixon a job after hearing that he was hungry and broke; later, after Vixon has explicitly identified money as his motive, Yohan refuses to keep providing it. The kindness that opened the door does not bind Yohan to continued support once the terms of the relationship are exposed. His disappointment is not simply that Vixon has lied about Kazumi or Zhara; it is that the emotional connection Yohan hoped for has been answered with exploitation.

What the Relationship Reveals About Yohan

Vixon's importance in Yohan's story lies partly in the contrast between longing and reciprocated intimacy. Yohan's former crush is remembered as a feeling he never confessed, and his later conduct shows how readily that hope can be used against him. Vixon does not become Yohan's partner in the evidence presented here. Instead, he uses Yohan's affection and generosity while directing his suspicions toward Kazumi and concealing his relationship with Zhara.

Yohan's later bond with Kazumi supplies a contrasting trajectory. He becomes possessive and openly intimate with her, and years later the two marry and fall in love. His proposal is presented as a decision to take responsibility for their child and to provide the child with a family structure, rather than as a declaration that he has ceased to identify as gay. At their wedding, Yohan participates in the language of marriage as Kazumi's husband; after their child is born, he holds the baby. These developments describe a changed family role, not evidence that his earlier identity was false.

That distinction remains visible in the later account of their life together. At thirty-eight, Yohan still dresses, wears makeup, and beautifies himself; he did not go through with sex reassignment surgery and says he wants to keep his penis. Their child accepts his self-expression. Against that later domestic life, the failed attachment to Vixon appears not as the end of Yohan's capacity for love but as an early relationship in which desire, trust, and financial dependence were badly misaligned. Vixon's betrayal closes the possibility suggested by Yohan's old crush, while the later family with Kazumi gives Yohan a different form of intimacy and responsibility.