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Buddy Willard's TB Diagnosis

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Buddy Willard's TB diagnosis gives a new outward shape to his relationship with Esther Greenwood just as she has decided to end it. His illness prompts her to offer sympathy and a promise of continued contact, but her private response is relief: the diagnosis lets her avoid explaining their break and gives her a socially acceptable reason to keep her distance.

The Call from Boston

Esther has just decided to leave Buddy for good—not because he slept with a waitress, but because he lacked the courage to acknowledge that conduct openly as part of his character—when a caller announces that the phone is for her, from Boston. The news is startling partly because Buddy rarely telephones long-distance; when he previously needed to reach her quickly, he had arranged for someone driving to her college to carry a note instead.

Buddy tells her that his annual fall chest X-ray has shown TB. He is going on a scholarship for medical students who contract the disease to a TB sanatorium in the Adirondacks. In the same call, he complains that Esther has not written since their last weekend, says he hopes nothing is wrong between them, and asks her to write at least once a week and visit during her Christmas vacation. The diagnosis therefore arrives with a request for renewed intimacy, even as Esther has privately resolved to break away.

Esther's Relief and Judgment

Esther tells Buddy she is sorry about the TB and promises to write. Once she hangs up, however, she feels no sorrow—only what she describes as wonderful relief. The contrast between her reassuring words and her immediate private reaction makes clear that his illness does not restore her attachment to him.

She interprets the TB as possible punishment for Buddy's double life and sense of superiority. That moral reading connects the diagnosis to the grievance behind her decision: his sexual conduct matters to her less than his refusal to admit it frankly. At the same time, she recognizes a practical advantage in the illness. She will not have to announce to everyone at college that she and Buddy have broken up or begin the tiresome process of blind dates again.

A Public Story and a Private Break

Esther tells people that Buddy has TB and that they are practically engaged. When she stays in to study on Saturday nights, her acquaintances treat her as brave and assume that she is working so hard because she has a broken heart. The account she gives them turns a private separation into a socially legible story of loyal waiting and self-denial.

That performance allows Esther to avoid both disclosing the breakup and publicly occupying the position of a single woman seeking new dates. The diagnosis thus becomes a cover for her withdrawal: others interpret her solitude as devotion, while she knows that her decision to end the relationship preceded the call and that the news has made that decision easier to keep concealed.