Brooklyn
Unorthodox: The Scandalous Rejection of My Hasidic RootsBrooklyn is both the bounded world Devorah grows up inside and the landscape against which she first imagines a life beyond it. In Williamsburg, family authority, religious institutions, public space, and neighborhood scrutiny shape daily experience; beyond it, the city appears at once near and difficult to enter. The changing borough eventually becomes more than a place she leaves: returning to it allows Devorah to see her past as a history she can claim without being confined by it.
Setting and communal geography
Devorah’s Brooklyn is centered on Williamsburg, where an old neighborhood has become closely identified with the Satmar community. The former PS 16, an Eastern District public school, is now part of the United Talmudical Academy of Satmar. Its large Gothic building occupies a full block and contains more than eighty classrooms, yet overcrowding has led to rooms being subdivided and classes holding between thirty and forty pupils. One classroom, formerly a bathroom, still has cut-off plumbing pipes in its walls. The school’s conversion makes the wider change in the neighborhood tangible: a public building has become part of a religious school system serving a community whose presence has reshaped local space.
That transformation is not presented as a simple story of belonging. Devorah’s world is close to other parts of New York City, but community norms make the distance feel substantial. From a classroom window, she can see the Brooklyn-Queens Expressway and the triangular block in its middle where the Williamsburg public library stands. Students are forbidden to enter. Those who pass its entrance on their way to school are careful to avoid the block. The library is physically visible from the school, yet access to its books is treated as a boundary that students should not cross.
Family life and neighborhood authority
Brooklyn’s domestic life is also shaped by family decisions and by who is permitted to make them. After Devorah’s mother leaves the community, Devorah lives with Aunt Chaya, whose attention and disapproval make the child wary. Aunt Chaya has a hand in major decisions about Devorah’s upbringing even when they do not see each other often. Devorah is unhappy in her aunt’s home and is scolded when she cries. She pleads to live with Bubby and Zeidy, and eventually moves back with her grandparents. Even then, Zeidy continues to seek Aunt Chaya’s advice about raising her.
An episode involving a mouse in Aunt Chaya’s apartment gives this household authority a concrete form. Before Sukkot, Devorah is sent upstairs to help clean. The old Williamsburg building has a persistent mouse problem despite regular exterminator visits, and Aunt Chaya has placed sticky traps under furniture. When one catches a mouse, Devorah longs for a way to release it; Aunt Chaya instead folds the trap. The incident sets Devorah’s wish for mercy against an adult’s decisive control, within the cramped, ordinary setting of the family’s neighborhood life.
Religious boundaries in public space
The rules governing Williamsburg extend beyond the home and school into the streets. The debate over a new Eruv, the Sabbath boundary, concerns whether residents may carry items in public on Shabbos. If the boundary makes the area count as private, families can carry necessities, including children and house keys. Opposing rabbis dispute whether such a boundary can be valid across a place traversed by Bedford Avenue, which continues through several Brooklyn neighborhoods. The legal argument is difficult for Devorah to follow, but its effects are visible: when some rabbis approve the Eruv, women begin taking baby carriages outside on Shabbos afternoons.
That change provokes confrontation. Some young Hasids wait along the main avenues to shout at women they believe are violating Shabbos law; reports that some have thrown rocks circulate through Zeidy’s account of the dispute. Zeidy himself believes the Eruv is valid after studying the question. Devorah admires his learning and his willingness to look for flexibility in religious law rather than defaulting to the strictest position. The controversy therefore reveals competing ways of inhabiting the same streets: for some, the Eruv makes family movement possible; for others, its use becomes a visible challenge to communal authority.
The borough as threshold and constraint
Brooklyn’s waterfront first gives Devorah a view of what lies nearby without making it feel accessible. At the Brooklyn Navy Yard, she sees the Manhattan skyline and begins to wonder why anyone would leave the city for Williamsburg. She studies subway, bus, and street maps in the library, trying to prepare for a journey on her own. Her first solo trip begins on the J train across the Williamsburg Bridge. Leaving the neighborhood brings exhilaration, but anxiety follows when she rides the F train and worries that Hasidic women opposite her might recognize her or connect her to someone they know.
At Union Square, the busy streets briefly overwhelm her. She seeks refuge in a Barnes & Noble, where the display of books offers choices she does not have to invent for herself. Older novels attract her more than contemporary books, and she buys Pride and Prejudice. Its opening sentence draws her toward a subject adults around her do not discuss with an unattached young woman: marriage, and the arrangements that lead to it. Brooklyn is thus not only the place she is trying to escape. Its limits help shape the questions she carries into the wider city, and the reading she finds there becomes a way to approach what her community leaves unexplained.
Leaving, return, and a changed landscape
As an adult, Devorah finds that marriage has not removed the scrutiny she experienced as a child. In Williamsburg, neighbors watch and gossip; even a private outing with Eli can feel vulnerable to unwanted attention. Their apartment is too small for the family life she wants, and the crowded conditions contrast with Eli’s more spread-out upbringing. Devorah works to persuade him to move, emphasizing his long commute and the possibility of living closer to his siblings. The plan offers a way out of a neighborhood she experiences as cramped and intrusive.
After leaving the Hasidic community, Devorah initially avoids Williamsburg and feels shame when she sees Hasidic clothing elsewhere. She is frightened that outsiders’ criticism of Hasids may expose her own background, and the truth, when it emerges, brings panic. With time, however, shame gives way to a more complicated recognition. Returning to Williamsburg in disguise, she experiences distance from what had once been her only home and begins to see her childhood as an unusual, formative history rather than merely a life she needed to escape.
That changed perspective coincides with visible change in the borough. On Kent Avenue, former warehouses have been replaced by glass condominiums, and cyclists pass through a landscape unlike the one Devorah remembers. The transformation sharpens the reversal: as a child she had longed to cross the river and sever her connection to Brooklyn; later, she can return and take satisfaction in having reached the life she imagined. She still finds extended time there confining, but occasional visits carry the pleasure of memory. Brooklyn remains part of her story, not a place she must either inhabit or erase.
In the epilogue, Devorah’s solitary visit to New Orleans leads her to recognize echoes of Williamsburg in another city: close-knit social life and boundaries between groups. The comparison complicates the idea that Brooklyn’s order is wholly exceptional, while her reflection on Williamsburg as a recreation of an earlier ideal connects the borough’s communal life to its relationship with the past. Brooklyn’s significance finally rests in this double view: it was an enclosing home, a point of departure, and a history Devorah can revisit on her own terms.