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September 11 attacks

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The September 11 attacks enter Devorah’s life not first as a public spectacle but as a break in the ordinary sounds and routines of a school day. Late to school and initially unaware of what has happened, she notices a strange quiet, is sent home without explanation, and learns the news from Zeidy’s newspaper and a small kitchen radio. The attack’s first meaning within her family is shaped by fear: Zeidy anticipates that Jews will be blamed, while Bubby imagines riots and expulsion, and fears that the Holocaust will happen again.

The morning’s unnatural quiet

On Tuesday, September 11, 2001, Devorah is late to school. At a quarter past ten, she walks the three blocks to the high school building at a fast pace. As she rounds the corner onto Harrison Avenue, the sky looks ominously gray, but the atmosphere does not feel like the start of rain. The air seems murky, as if filled with construction dust. This unsettled impression is set against a familiar urban backdrop: the school has no air-conditioning, and with fall not yet arrived, its windows are open.

Usually the street noise overwhelms the teacher’s voice. Drilling, honking, and trucks bumping over metal plates make it necessary to close the windows during lessons. That day, however, the street is eerily quiet. Devorah can hear only faintly chirping sparrows. The quiet is not yet an explanation; it is an absence that makes the familiar setting feel wrong before she knows why.

At one o’clock, the school’s rarely used public-address system crackles into life. The secretary announces that all girls are dismissed, instructing them to pack and leave in orderly lines. Buses are waiting for students who live far away, and the school will notify them when classes resume. The announcement gives no reason. Devorah looks around, confused: school is normally canceled only for an emergency such as a fire, yet there are no alarms. Her classmates are glad to be released and giggle as they line up; she is the one who remains curious about the unexplained decision.

The news reaches the family

Walking home pensively, Devorah worries that Zeidy may think she is making up a story to avoid school. The concern belongs to the ordinary expectations of her day, even as the unexplained dismissal points toward an event too large for her to imagine. At home, Zeidy is not in his office. Upstairs, Bubby is kneading challah dough, her apron smeared with sticky residue, while holding the telephone to her ear. She says little, responding with occasional nods and vague questions.

Zeidy arrives carrying a folded newspaper. He rarely brings secular newspapers into the house. When he wants stock-market news, he sometimes crosses Broadway to read the business section of The Wall Street Journal at a Mexican bodega. The paper’s presence at home therefore stands out. He signals Bubby to put down the phone and spreads it across the flour-dusted table. Its cover shows what appears to Devorah to be a photograph of the World Trade Center Twin Towers burning. She does not understand why he is showing it to them.

Zeidy explains that a terrorist attack has taken place that morning and that a plane flew into the towers. Devorah asks when it happened. It is already a quarter past two in the afternoon, and the news feels difficult to reconcile with the school day that has just ended. Zeidy says it happened at eight-something and announces that he will buy a radio so the family can listen to the news. His decision signals the seriousness of the event: he does not normally let them listen to the radio.

Listening and anticipating blame

For the rest of the afternoon, the family huddles beside a tiny radio in the kitchen, hearing the same broadcast repeated. Its account gives the morning a precise time: at 8:46, a plane crashed into the first tower. The repetition supplies a factual sequence to a day Devorah has experienced through unexplained signs—the gray sky, the quiet street, and the sudden dismissal—while the family remains gathered around the limited information available to them.

As they listen, Zeidy fears that the attack will be blamed on Jews. Bubby distinguishes between Israel and Jews, but Zeidy answers that others will treat them as the same. Their disagreement is not about whether the news is grave; it concerns how its consequences may fall on Jews, including those far from the attack. In the kitchen, a report of violence elsewhere becomes a fear about the family’s own vulnerability.

Bubby believes that another Holocaust may follow. She anticipates riots and the possibility that Americans will want Jews expelled, and says she always knew it would happen again. Her response makes the past an immediate lens through which she interprets the present. She urges Devorah to repent before Yom Kippur, warning that the world can turn upside down in a moment. The plea connects the family’s fear to the approaching religious day and to the possibility, as Bubby sees it, that events can overturn security without warning.

A private encounter with public catastrophe

The episode is narrated through Devorah’s limited understanding as a schoolgirl. She initially has no explanation for the quiet or the early dismissal, and she receives the attack through other people’s actions: the secretary’s announcement, Zeidy’s unusual newspaper, and the radio he buys. The distance between the attack and her first knowledge of it is measured in everyday details and hours. At 10:15 she is walking to class; at one she is sent home; by 2:15 she is looking at the newspaper while Zeidy explains what happened.

That sequence gives the event a domestic shape without diminishing its scale. The newspaper is unfolded on a kitchen table marked with flour; Bubby’s challah dough and the tiny radio frame the family’s response. The broadcast repeats the time of the first plane strike, while conversation turns toward blame, Israel, Jewish identity, and the remembered possibility of persecution. The scene does not offer a broader account of the attack or its aftermath. Instead, it records how the news arrives in one household and how quickly public catastrophe becomes, for its listeners, a question of danger to their own community.