Maori and Tooru begin dating
Even If This Love Disappears From the World TonightMaori and Tooru begin dating at the end of May, when Maori agrees to go out with a boy she barely knows despite knowing that her anterograde amnesia will erase each day’s experiences after she sleeps. The relationship lasts far longer than Izumi expects and becomes a central structure in Maori’s life: Tooru helps make the repeated present worth returning to, while Maori’s choice to try something new remains her own.
Conditions and Beginnings
The relationship begins under the pressure of a strict daily reset. After an accident, Maori cannot retain new memories from one day to the next. Her family and school know about her condition, but she has not told her classmates. School administrators and her parents have considered the risks of disclosing it: rumors could draw unwanted attention, and Maori might be vulnerable to harm she would not remember the next morning. The decision to keep the condition private is therefore framed not simply as embarrassment, but as a measure intended to protect her mental well-being.
Even with this constraint, Maori decides to accept Tooru’s confession. When Izumi asks why she would try dating him, Maori explains that he said he liked her and that she wants to see whether she can do something new. She does not tell him about her amnesia and has no plan to do so. Her choice is neither based on an expectation that she will remember him nor on a promise that the condition will soon change; it is an effort to enter an experience despite knowing its limits.
The relationship starts in a way that leaves Izumi doubtful. She recalls that, after Maori told her she had decided to date him, she went to speak with Tooru during break the next day. He seemed unremarkable and had little to say when asked about Maori. Izumi expected them to break up quickly, reasoning that Tooru did not seem to behave like someone in love. The contrast between that first impression and the relationship’s later duration gives its beginning a deliberately uncertain quality.
Building a Life Across Resets
For Maori, dating Tooru does not remove the daily loss of memory. She continues to wake without recollection of the preceding day, and her journal becomes one way of encountering her own recent life. Its weekly summaries and daily entries record events in an informal voice, including the beginnings of the relationship and ordinary details such as after-school time, dates, Izumi, and black tea. Reading those entries lets Maori learn, for that day, what she has lived through, even when the experience itself is inaccessible to her.
Tooru’s response is not to make memory an entrance requirement for closeness. He imagines filling Maori’s journal with happy experiences so that the version of her who wakes tomorrow can look forward to ordinary life and feel less afraid of the future. The intention gives their dates a double shape: they matter as shared time in the present, and they can also be recorded for a future Maori who will not remember having been there. Tooru’s hope does not cancel the sadness of that discontinuity; it gives him a practical way to answer it.
Their relationship also contributes to Maori’s return to drawing. She had stopped making art when she entered high school to concentrate on studying, but during summer vacation she begins drawing every day. The sketchpad fills with figure drawings and portraits, including one of the boyfriend she can barely recognize from the page alone. Maori and her past selves learn about procedural, or implicit, memory and consider that physical skills might survive even when autobiographical memories do not. Practice confirms the possibility: she improves gradually, and the time spent with Tooru is associated with taking up her art again. The romance consequently supports a form of development that does not depend on remembering each lesson.
Duration and Changing Perceptions
By the start of fall semester, three months have passed since Maori and Tooru began dating. Izumi, who had initially expected the couple to separate, sees them riding a bicycle together and recognizes how much Tooru cares for Maori. She thinks he probably already knew about the amnesia by then, but cannot understand why he changed or why learning of such a serious condition did not lead him to end the relationship. The shift in Izumi’s judgment makes duration itself evidence: Tooru’s care becomes legible through what he continues to do, not through a dramatic explanation she can immediately identify.
The relationship remains part of Maori’s life through the demands of the school year. She and her friends make it to graduation, and Tooru passes a civil-service examination in a neighboring district, with plans to start work at city hall. Maori, meanwhile, has made substantial progress in drawing and plans to attend art classes several times a week while waiting for a cure. The milestones do not erase the cost of her condition, but they show that her life has continued to acquire direction and skills during the years in which her episodic memory could not accumulate normally.
Later, after Maori recovers, she can remember the previous day, though the relationship’s earlier experiences are not automatically restored as personal recollections. Reading her old journal still feels good: its account of a living, breathing person is recognizably hers even when she cannot recall the events. She understands that her parents and Izumi’s devotion helped her graduate and return to art, while her procedural memory carried her drawing forward. These later reflections place the relationship within a broader network of care rather than making Tooru the sole explanation for her survival or achievements.
What the Relationship Means
After Tooru’s death, Maori learns more about how the relationship began and developed. She hears that his confession was originally made to protect a friend and that the couple’s relationship had specific conditions. She also learns that Tooru truly fell in love with her. This account complicates the apparent simplicity of the beginning: the relationship started under circumstances other than a straightforward romantic declaration, but grew into genuine love. The distinction matters because neither Maori’s daily resets nor Tooru’s initial motive can explain away what the relationship became.
Maori responds to the revelation by acknowledging the boundary between written evidence and remembered experience. Without her journal, she says, the time she spent with Tooru would be as if it had never happened. The line gives the journal a role beyond record-keeping: it preserves a relationship whose events her recovered memory has not returned to her. At the same time, the records cannot make remembering equivalent to having lived the days again. Her response is halting and painful, but she continues speaking about the relationship, making its history something she can approach through testimony as well as through her own recollection.
The romance therefore develops across several distinct kinds of continuity: the repeated choice to participate in a new day, Tooru’s effort to make those days worth recording, Maori’s written record of a life she cannot carry forward in memory, and the physical learning that lets her drawing improve. Its beginning is an act of agency in the face of uncertainty; its duration changes the judgment of a skeptical friend; and its aftermath reveals that sincere love can grow from an imperfect beginning without removing the losses built into Maori’s condition. The relationship matters not because it defeats the daily reset, but because it gives Maori experiences, ambitions, and a history worth seeking out even when she cannot remember them unaided.